09/23/11

Oh man...today was another trying day for me. I'm just taking it day by day. The only problem I'm having is with Aubrey's parents. I didn't call them to inform them about what happened b/c those were Aubrey's wishes. That didn't stop them for trying to "scald" me last night. For Aubrey, I kept my mouth shut..but they have no idea what I'm going. They just see their daughter suffering and not myself. She's not the only one who lost somebody. For Aubrey's sake I'll carry those crosses. I wish they'd have more compassion for me, I mean it hadn't been less than 3 hrs before they ran their mouths. They have a lotta of balls saying anything b/c they don't have a right.  Mrs. Jordan asked me will I forgive her and I said I'd try. She told me she'd try too. Like wtf? Forgive me for what? Loving your daughter so damn much? Being there for her through thick and then? GTFO with that shit..the only this hatchet will never be buried, you bitch.  Looking at me like I was the reason all this happened..FUCK YOU! The only thing I'm guilty of is loving my son and Aubrey to death. You can go to hell with all that bullshit. Mr. Jordan I'm not gonna hold anything towards b/c you're a coward and it'd be insult to injury to say anything else to you. I just hope my son, my little angel is in heaven praying for his parents comfort and healing. I love you baby boo and I hope you're safe up there. We'll reunite soon..I promise Mente. Save me a spot and know that your momma and daddy love you forever.