Man this whole situation is bullshit. Why is it so hard to have my family at home? Is that really such a hard request? Can I never get what I want? Is there always gonna be something blocking my way to happiness? These questions need answers and I desperately need them...
As you may know or not know, my wife and I are expecting our first girl on 12/11/12. Also, if you read the previous blogs we lost out firstborn son last year. It was by far worse than death. Her parents fail to see that Aubrey (my wife) isn't the only one that lost somebody that day. With that being said, I have disdained feelings towards them. Any who, this pregnancy is going exceptionally well. Gabby is definitely our rainbow baby (a baby who is conceived after a miscarriage/still birth/infant death). The only thing that's stopping me from fully enjoying this pregnancy is the aftermath of Gabriella's birth.
Ya see, Aubrey wants to move in with her parents all the way out in B.F.E. (Bum Fuck Egypt). Her reasoning is that I'm gonna be working all the time. I understand why she wants to move but why can't her parents help her out at our house? She knows I rarely go out there b/c of how I feel. Why do I have to miss time away from my daughter? This is our biggest fight as of right now. I hate fighting b/c it can get real ugly and fast but I can't help but stand tall against this issue. I have strong feelings about this especially since her mom is a ticking time bomb. We have had our fair share of disputes. My biggest fear is Gabby being a victim of all this. What if Aubrey is still recovering from the c-section and then her mom decides to flip? Aubrey will be defenseless and so will our baby. Why would Aubrey's mom be a threat? Because she has a history of being violent and going bat-shit crazy. That's my biggest fear.. That I'm not gonna be there to help her out if I'm so far away. I just don't know what to do.
